Chapter Seven/ Resentments and Fake Loves
It had been weeks since Sarah heard the news of Jareth being married and that he was expecting a child with his wife. Sarah’s heart felt weak, she knew that forgetting Jareth would be one of the hardest things she would ever have to do. But for that baby’s sake she knew that she needed to do something to forget him. After that day she and Ryan had been going out alot. But as a couple, she consented to be his girlfriend and he was more than happy to have Sarah by his side. Sarah knew deep within that Ryan meant well and she was not getting any younger. Jareth was married now and she had to forget what she felt for him. Flashes of Gertrude’s crying face remained in her head and she could not understand how anyone could be so dishonest.
She watching the movie Ryan had rented for them that night. “Isn’t this movie great honey?” He said as he kissed her on the forehead.
“Yeah , yeah you know how much I love these action movies.” She said thinking how boring this movie was and how ridiculous it is for one man to beat a whole army of bad guys.
She reached out to grab some popcorn but mostly it was to get loose from Ryan tight grip. She got up and decided to find something to drink.
“Um I’m gonna go get something to drink you want something?”
“Yeah, yeah grab me some soy milk will yah. I’m dying for some.”
Sarah made a sour face after she turned around not facing Ryan. They were at Ryan’s studio apartment. Ryan had lots of money so he could afford one. Sarah went to explore his kitchen bored of that movie. She told him to bring something romantic but there he went as usual bringing hom some action movie with one guy against the world!
She looked through his cabinets and everything was in order, cans with cans, boxes with boxes, all the labels were facing out. He was a major neat freak. Sarah tried not to get weirded out by this but couldn’t help but laugh at Ryan’s nerdiness. She opened the refrigerator and all was neatly stacked and no kind of junk food was seen. All fruits and veggies and yogurts and drinks all soy based. Boy he really ate healthy.
‘But hey atleast he’s nice and healthy.’ She thought wishing he could’ve had some ice-cream and chips but all he had were rice cakes and air popped popcorn which they were already eating. So she opted for a fruit, a peach ofcourse.
As she grabbed the peach to wash it tears began to form in her eyes and she could feel a knot in her throat. She remembered the time Hoggle handed over the peach to her, she remembered the dress, the masked people, his eyes, his lips, his touch.
“Oh snap out of it you stupid fool!” She said to herself when Ryan came in. “What did you say?”
Sarah blushed and quickly wiped the tears from her eyes. “Oh, oh sorry I, I was just practicing some of my work.
Ryan smiled and grabbed the peach from Sarah’s hand and took a huge bite out of it. “Hmm seems a bit sour don’t yah think. Come on the movie just got good. He’s about to rescue the world!”
Sarah smiled and looked at her peach with a huge bite on it now seeming spoiled and just threw it away. “I’ll be right there.” She looked at her reflection on the oven door and tried to seem normal. As she sat on the coach Ryan placed his hand over her shoulder.
An Hour Later………….
The movie was done and Sarah had fallen asleep in Ryan’s arms. “Don’t you look like an angel,” He said as he kissed her. Sarah woke up startled to see Ryan had laid her down on the couch and he was right on top of her giving her looks which made her feel uncomfortable. “Oh hi is the movie over?”
He smiled and kissed her again this time more intensely. “Yeah the movie is over my sweet. So now we have lots of free time. If you know what I mean.”
He kissed her deeply and Sarah didn’t know what to do. So she slightly pushed him up breathing heavily,”Um Ryan I, I’m not ready for this now. Could you please give me some time. I mean ,just, please.”
Ryan’s smile disappeared and he became serious,”Sarah, I know that you don’t love me the way I love you but trust me when I say that I would never do anything to hurt you. I love you for goodness sakes.”
Sarah’s eyes began to water as she pushed him completely off her.
“What’s wrong Sarah? Did I do something wrong? I’m sorry..”
Sarah nodded her head and simply hugged him,”No Ryan it’s not you, you are too good to me. I don’t deserve your love.”
Ryan hugged her caressing her hair,”Don’t say that Sarah. You deserve the best, and I am willing to show you that for the rest of my life. Do you understand?” Ryan said now facing Sarah kissing her lightly on the lips. He got down on his knees and grabbed a little box from his pocket. “I have been carrying this ring around since I first knew that I loved you Sarah. I always knew that I wanted to marry you. You are wonderful and artistic and so beautiful. Will you marry me Sarah. I promise to make you love me one day. Promise.”
Sarah was in total shock not really knowing what to do. She got a flashback of Gertrude telling her to marry Ryan and so she nodded yes.
Ryan jumped up happy and then placed the ring on Sarah’s ring finger. The ring was dazzling, shiny made out of gold and it had a huge diamond right in the middle. It was beautiful but not the kind of ring she would have picked for herself. Yet she was grateful that she had someone to love her and not lie to her the way Jareth did. Ryan grabbed her and hugged her so tight she nearly ran out of breathe. They kissed as Ryan led Sarah towards his room.
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Jareth threw yet another crystal to shatter to peices. “I can’t believe it, I can’t believe it! She is going to marry him. He drinks soy milk for pete’s sake. And he is not even lactose intolerant! And now she is in his bed! ”
He was so angry he could not even hide it from his servants. Gertrude could hear his screams all over the castle and she smiled. Oh yes she smiled at her own craftiness. The small pillow she wore under her dress would soon have to be replaced by a larger one. And she had yet to find a child that would resemble Jareth. She had to find one at all costs. She left to search the kingdom for one.
Jareth still angry walking around his throne room raving something about evil evil Ryan. Decided he would do something. His jealousy now a poison running through every vessel in his body did not let him think with clarity. He had to do something! He quickly disappeared leaving behind his dust of glitter. He appeared at Ryan bedroom were so quickly Ryan was asleep already while Sarah was in the bathroom taking a shower.
Jareth walked over to Ryan waving his hand over him making his sleep even deeper. He slowly walked over to Sarah, he could hear the water running in the bathroom. He walked through the door. He sees Sarah leaning against the shower see thru door. He could see every curb in her body. She was crying.
He knew he loved her but he also knew that she was now someone else’s. He could not resist, his animal instints taking over. Sarah felt something and stood tall, “Ryan is that you?”
She felt someone cover her eyes. A blindfold, she could not see anything. She felt warm hand touching her face caressing her every facial structure. The warm hand then running down her back while strong lips kissed her softly yet hungrily. She pushed whoever it was back but could not resist the temptation as he began to caress her body with expertly hand. She only kissed him back. She knew deep in her heart it was not Ryan but pretended it was him in order to not feel any guilt. His body now rubbing against hers as both were in deep hunger eating each other up in kisses. They both gave each other favors and the water became colder and colder by the moment. Becoming one Sarah began to forget the experience of before. Jareth forgetting he had responsibilities to keep. They were one against all odds. As they came to the point of extasy they both moaned in utter pleasure. Not being able to relax as they both needed and wanted more. Sarah cried wanting this moment to last forever while Jareth’s body shook from excitement. As if both of their bodies not wanting to finish this experience.
Yet again in utter entrancement both once again in one accord finished breatheless. Bodies fully relaxed in spite of the water now having become cold. As they both heaved Jareth took off Sarah’s blindfold. Sarah stood in shock yet knowing subconsciensly who it was.
“What, what do you want Jareth? As warm tears began to flow down her cheeks. “Shouldn’t you be with YOUR WIFE?” She said now realizing what she had just done.
Jareth surpised that Sarah even knew this quickly grabbed her by the arms,”Sarah how , how did you know?”
Sarah slapped him letting herself out of the shower, grabbing a towel. As she covered herself Jareth was already out of the stall dried and dressed. “How did you find out Sarah?” He said in a more stern voice.
“What does it matter Jareth! You never told me you were married! Let alone having a baby with your wife!”
Jareth stood in shock. “It was your wife who came to me. Pleading Jareth, pleading I forget you pleading that I not break up your happy home! You f** bastard! How could you do this? What kind of fae are you? A coward who is looking for some entertainment while his poor wife is at home balling her eyes out!”
Jareth knew Getrude was horrible but that horrible! “Listen , Sarah it’s not like she told you. I, I don’t love her. I married her out of contract to please my father. But my heart has always been with you Sarah. You, my beautiful Sarah.”
He came near hear grabbing her frantic hands as she began to hit his chest. “Sarah listen to me. I was going to leave her to be with you but then she gave me the news she was pregnant. She tricked me, I thought it was you. I don’t even sleep in the same room as her.”
Sarah stood still her chest heaving up and down,”What do you think I am Jareth? Stupid? Am I supposed to believe that after all this time you have been married to her. YOu have never really slept with her! That is ludicrous and I am not going to fall for that old trick. I will not be someone’s second platter. Especially when it involves a child! I need more than what you offer me Jareth. I need someone to love me and only me.”
“What someone like Ryan? He doesn’t even know what you really like Sarah. He doesn’t love you like I love you. We have true love. What you have with Ryan is only an illusion.”
“Whatever it may be Jareth, but atleast I won’t feel guilty about breaking up a marraige and let alone leaving a child without a parent. I happen to know how awful that feels. And I will not be a part of it. I am marrying Ryan, so I would appreciate it if you never came back. I Love Ryan, he will be my one and only.”
Jareth looked at Sarah, knowing that he did not have the right to steal any chance she had at a normal relationship. After all he was married and he was going to be a father soon. Sarah did not deserve the role of a mistress. He wanted her to be his wife. But those dreams and hopes seemed to die and wither away.
Jareth disappeared and Sarah fell to the tiled floor crying her eyes out.
Author’s note again: No offense to anyone who eats like Ryan does. I just want to depict his personality.